What would you do if you were offered unlimited child care, free of charge?
She said that after everything I've been through the last few years they've decided that I need a break.
They want to add an extra bedroom/bathroom in my house (they own it) and move in. She said that from now until next June I will be free to do whatever I want.
I've wanted to move closer to Columbus so she said if I want I can go get a place, get a new job, get settled in and the boys will move back in with me next summer. Or if I want, I can stay here when I feel like it or I can stay with friends or my boyfriend whenever I want. If I move I can have the kids as often as I like.
I feel this overwhelming sense of parental guilt but I'm thinking I'm going to take them up on it. We agreed that we'll try it for a month and if I can't do it they'll move out, no questions asked.
She said that after Dan died, getting back into my normal routine seemed to help a lot but she said this time everybody can see that I'm just not dealing with life very well and I'm honestly not, I'm so stressed out and I've been trying to pretend that everything is all good. She thinks that I just need a break from all responsibility to try to decompress and find things that make me happy again.
I know most of you will say that you could never leave your children. To me it feels like I'm doing something to make myself better for them. I'm currently seeing three mental health people so I'm going to talk with them this week and next and see what they think.