I'm getting married in 10 days. The closer the day gets the harder it is getting for me to deal with the fact that my brother is not going to be a part of it. We were so close growing up. Our birthdays were 3 days apart and we always celebrated together. I have not celebrated a birthday in 4 years. They are heartbreaking to me because I don't have my best friend to celebrate with. I thought I could deal with the wedding. Its a one time thing but the closer it gets the more time I spend bawling my eyes out because he is not going to be there. Its like part of me is missing. His best friend is standing on my side next to my maid of honor (my sister). They were extremely close and is like a brother to me but its still not the same. I just don't know what to do to helps get through this without dwelling on the fact that he is gone.
There really isn't much pint to this post. I just needed to put all my feelings out. Thanks for listening.
ETA I should have mentioned that my brother died of terminal brain cancer 4 years ago a month before our 21st/19th birthdays.
Every once in a while someone comes along that can truly be called a hero. My brother is one of them.