I literally hate myself right now. I feel like the worst wife and mother out there. I want happy me back. I want my baby boy back. I feel like losing him was punishment for not being good enough. I want to not make dh feel like I have stopped loving him or that I want him gone. Him and our kids are my life. I feel like almost anyone would be better than me. We got into it and he just falls asleep while I'm bawling my eyes out. Not fair.