Eta! I did it!!!...ok actually I didn't. I called my father inlaw to see if he was in the area. Turns out he was right down the street! So I asked him to teach me lol he followed me up there, taught me how to do it, then filled up my tank for free! Such a nice guy :) thanks for everyone who said encouraging words lol!
Oh and also to address the many questions that have been asked and will continue to be asked; I am from New Jersey. It is illegal to pump your own gas there so I never did it. Yes I've been on road trips but never by myself so someone else always handled the gas. I now live in va and my husband usually fills the tank up whenever it's needed but he's out of town and I was on E!