That being said.... I'm so depressed right now. Like so close to throwing in the towel. I don't have a job, can't find a job.
I have bills up the ass.
Ds' bday is coming up soon and I don't think I can get him a gift. 8 years and he's never even had a bday party.
I got called a bad mom by my jackass ex.... and now ds has the thought in his head that I'm keeping him away from his dad.
And finally, my glasses just broke. Again.
I'm crying and pathetic.
On top of that, I had sex with a guy weeks ago. The guilt is killing me. Should've pushed him off, or did something. Instead, I'm left worrying about whether I'm pregnant or not (2.5 weeks- can't test yet) Not in a relationship, not having sex so I seen no need to use BC for the last year.... apparently he didn't either.
I'm gonna go cry now and hope for a better tomorrow cuz no one in my real life wants to hear about my bs, expect me to be all happy. When all I want to do is sleep.