my friend died in a car accident. breaks my heart. he lost control of the car in nj. last year his father had a get together for his birthday and i heard through the grape vine that the family does have a slight grudge against me. he was scared to drive again. he had a car and a lisence but didnt drive. so i told him that he should get behind the wheel. we met in group threapy and hit it off. he had anxiety about driving and i offered to take him back out to get over it because he loved being a musician. he was able to book more gigs once he got back on the road too. and he wound up dying behind the wheel. if i didnt push him he could still be here. its a shitty feeling.