Prayers needed, but also advice is welcome. (stress level is high enough, please no bashing)
I am leaving my husband. Im anon because he spies on me, and a quick google search of my SN would lead him here.
He is controlling, verbally and emotionally abusive, sexually abusive. He hit me once, 5 years ago, but i gave him another chance. But it is only a matter of time before he does it again.
I have a chance to get out. A possible job, and a safe place to go. its 1500 miles away. I have a vehicle in my name only, and can easily get me and my children there.
BUT if i wait, (which it is technically SAFE for us to do, since its mostly just me being miserable, if he were hitting me or the kids it wouldnt even be a question)
I can leave this month, take DHs paycheck for the week which will only be about 1000$, and just run.
Or i can wait, until tax season, when we get our return, then take that and run.
I need prayers on the strength to make a decision, and make the RIGHT decision.
but any advice is greatly apreciated.
I cant tell anyone where i am, because that too would give me away. but i can tell you, this city is so over populated with the unemployed and low income single mothers, that the shelters and programs i have called, all have a waiting list.
the state/city i am going to is by no means small, but is smaller than here, and has many more resources readily available.
Dont mean to ramble. thats about it.
EDIT forgot to say
What is keeping me from going is my mother was recently diagnosed with cancer. She is fighting, and they caught it early. she told me that the doctors have no doubt she will beat it. they removed the tumor, and she is going through a short round of chemo. she already had her first set last week and is doing wonderuflly.
but to leave, right now. while she is going through that...id ont know if i could live with myself if she does end up dying :(