My father passed away on august 8, 2008. For the life of me, I CANNOT stop being angry. Everyday, I wake up, I'm angry. If the kids do something, I'm angry. My ex-husband and I got together in 2004 and we divorced in 2011. I'm in a new relationship, everything is great...minus the fact I HATE life. I'm angry my father passed away from lymphoma, type b class c. He died exactly one month before my daughter, his one and only granddaughter, was born. I've gone to therapists, which several had said, "you can't come here, your anger is too much to handle. You need to seek other help." (Hospice said this to me)
I did seek other help, but none of it HAS helped. I want to wake up in the morning not mad at the world, or mad at my kids when they've done nothing wrong.
My father was THE greatest man alive. He was THE ONLY one who believed in me and loved me for who I was/am.
How do I deal? It's been over five years and everyone says healing takes time...well, hell, it's been five years...how much longer until I feel relief?????