I need some major advice MIA dh contacted me Updated added info
He contacted me Tuesday night for the first time and in that short 10 minute conversation was him telling me all that he's been through, living in Mexico for work. Now he's living in Oregon and he's planing on coming back down to so cal around the 16th. He wants to see the children.
I have mixed emotions about all this. I don't want to deny my kids their father but I don't think he deserves my kids. He abandoned all of us. Left me to fend for myself and for our family. Since he's been gone it was hard but were doing ok, we are healing and I'm scared to open back up to him. I've been strong and I thought I've let go and moved on but I'm terrified if I see him face to face that I will become weak. He is and was my first love. But he did me so dirty.
He's been calling me everyday this week. They are short phone calls from a private number, but it's something.
I don't know what to do. I feel so confused by all this. I don't even know where he stands with him and I. He doesn't really talk about it all and I'm scared if I bring it up to where he's gets nasty and angry I may not hear from him again. I'm trying to play my cards right in all this.
I could really use the advice on what I should do.
I know I'm gonna get bashed to hell for this but I'm the one who recently had the tummy tuck. And it's just crazy of all times he chooses to call me and try and see his kids when I'm in recovery. I feel like I should tell him to just not contact me again at all, because I don't need the extra stress in my life on top of him opening up old wounds and emotions. Especially when I forgave him...because I refuse him to continue to have power over me in that way.