So. My fiance and I are finally getting married. We picked a date and a reception venue which is a beautiful elegant hotel. This weekend, we read an article that the hotel was purchased by DoubleTree by Hilton and they are planning a multi-million dollar renovation done by July (we're getting married in September). Normal people would probably thing that's great. That their wedding will be even more stunning. No. Not my brain. I go straight to thinking: What if they completely change the ballroom and the grand hallway? What if they take down the gorgeous chandeliers...what if they take down ALL of them (there are a LOT and they are big and sparkly and half the reason we picked this place? What if they make it more of a modern style hotel? What if..what if..what if. So then I think to myself about prices...so I frantically read the contract we've already signed and delivered to them. All prices are mentioned in the contract...so that was a load off my shoulders.
So I calm down from that freak out.
Then I call my mom. I tell her about this...and she is less than encouraging. She makes it very clear that I need to call the banquet manager ASAP and make sure I know what will and will not impact my wedding and how I better demand my deposit back if they're changing the whole hotel and it's not going to be something I want anymore. Then proceeds to remind me that "we cannot help you pay for this wedding". So I ask "I thought you and dad said you'd help with about 5,000" (which they did say...MONTHS ago). "That is not what I said. I said that was going to be your wedding gift..you are on your own for the wedding"....WHAT! I had to get off the phone before I just lost it. Before I do though, she suggests we take out a loan. Um no. Not going to get approved. We just bought our house in May and I can't even get approved for a blance transfer on my credit card that I want to not have interest to pay for awhile.
I got off the phone and just started bawling. BAWLING. This whole wedding is becoming way more of a hassle than I'm willing to deal with.
Then today, I find out my healthcare is QUADRUPLING per month. FREAKING QUADRUPLING. I'm going from paying about 50 a paycheck (every 2 weeks) to over 200 a pay check. And because we're in such a low cost bracket...we literally have no other options as far as Obamacare. I'm screwed.
So then I instantly start to freak out. We are never going to be able to afford this wedding. We have only half of what we need saved for just the reception and we will need about 2000 on top of that for the rest of everything else. My fiance keeps telling me we'll be fine and we'll figure it out and he is always right about this stuff but I just can't help but to have a meltdown. I am broke all the time as it is. I do not make much at my job, he makes enough to make up for that but it's not enough for us to save 8000 in less than one year. I just am out of ideas on how to cut costs. I stopped buying anything extra. We eat out...never. I am so sick of something else happening every single time I think "yeah, we can do this". WRONG.
I need to win the lottery. End of story.