Knowing what I know now and just how harshly my ex fiancee judged me. He told me he had to confess something to me and it really wasn't that bad at all, he's adopted, he asked me about anything that could come back to "haunt" me so I told him about the child I had in HS and gave up for adoption when I was 16. I told him I had no regrets about my decision and that the boy I gave birth to has a great life with parents who love him and have and continue to give him much more than I could have . Once that baby boy was placed in the arms of his adoptive mother I knew the right decision had been made. Well he is silent for a while and then asks me why didn't I keep the child and let my parents raise him, I explained to him my parents were going to through a divorce and it was a decision that I made, the boy's father made, and both sets of parents thought was best.
Long story short 2 days later he tells me he can't marry me because if we ever have children he is afraid I might reject them..WTF?? I didn't reject my child, I was a child myself and not capable of providing for him at that time and there was a couple that could and wanted him very much. So now I am single, but I don't feel sad, I feel like I dodged a bullet and that my ex was being really judgmental. I just don't know.