I dont know how to keep having a relationship with my mom!
When I was younger my mom was a single mom. And my uncle's just tormented me. When I was 4 my one uncle beat me so bad I was bursed from my heels to my shoulders. He went to jail over it for a few years. Then my mom forgave him, and they both just did mean stuff to me here and there . Well when I was 19 I borrowed 600.00 dollars from the other uncle , well one morning at like 7am he knocks on my apt door wakes up me and my roommate and has 7 black guys with him walk in to my apt, he then offers me a way to earn back his money by stripping for those guys..I was so embarrassed and just yet again felt worthless by these men in my family. The whole time my whole life my mom was there patting me on the leg saying oh honey don't take it so personal that's just who you're uncle's are. Finally after I had my kids I had tried talking to him about not being so harsh on his daughter, he flipped on me called me every name in the book. I had finally had enough. Decided that just because they were family doesn't mean I need to keep putting myself through that nor risk my kids growing up like I did. So I cut them out. Well my mom decided to let my girls spend the night with my uncle well they were visiting her, on top of all that my uncle smokes pot in front of who ever even kids , he curses like a drunk sailor, and is the most loud, sexist, racist, most horrible view of women. Person you could meet. So when I find out my kids are staying at his house I race 3 1/2 hours to pick them up. Again my whole family turns on me. I stop talking to my mom for almost a year. We make up, that was all a few years ago. Well just pass few days she has said I wish you would learn to forgive them. And like I told her every time she does that pat on the leg like there there dear they are family, she makes me feel like I'm not worth respect .. I am lossing respect for her .. am I holding on to this to long, should I forgive.