I recently loss my home and ended up homeless with my children. My husband abandoned us and I was unable to get any help and even if I got a job, we can't survive for 2 weeks waiting on my first pay check. I made the heart wrenching decision to sell my body to feed my children and provide a place for us to stay.
While my children are at school I hit backpage and see 2-3 men so that I can pay for our hotel and provide food for them. I'm paying 4500.00 a month for the motel so it's impossible to save any money. This wasn't my dream job or anything it was a decision that was made out of total desparation. I "see' men at a different location than where we are staying. I wouldn't want my children sleeping in the same bed I had sex in.
I am now a sex slave. I am enslaved by my situation and life circumstances. If I don't whore myself everyday I won't have money to take care of their basic needs. There are no days off. I'm at the end of my rope. I've been beaten and degraded by men and I'm so depressed and just hopelessly lost... My husband won't help. He won't work and doesn't want to. My family doesn't have the resources to help. I'm.not sure how much longer I'll last.
I probably won't look back at this post. I know how vicious many women are on this site and i'm depressed enough as it is. I just needed to tell someone. This is the last thing i ever thought i'd be doing. I'll do anything for my kids though. I love them so much and i have got to find help to escape this before i'm arrested or killed. They mean the world to me.
Depending on your beliefs, please pray for me, send positive healing thoughts and energy my way. I have ovarian cancer. I don't have a lot of time left. This isn't how I thought I'd be living my last days.