I am so tired of this... I am tired of being a married parent who is basically single parenting.
I love my kids I really do but on days like today I just want to run screaming and pulling my hair out.
My 4 year old has literally found reason after reason to cry/whine since he has been home from school. It all started when he went to the bathroom and didn't want to clean himself up. I finally got him to do so and then he was mad because he wanted to play a game but I was setting up the cable box and needed to have the tv (we only have one in the house.) Then he was mad because I wouldn't let him throw the remotes around. Then he was mad because I told him that he was going to have to go back to his room and clean it up. And then he was mad because he was mad. And so on and so forth.... He has literally screamed his head off since about 4 pm and its now 6.
I am so frustrated I want just want some peace and quiet.... I have a bad headache and I feel sick to my stomach because I am pregnant and I ate something that the baby didn't want. I finally got the kids settled down and let them watch curious george.... Now I just want to go hide in the bathroom where my 3 year old cannot find me because she has been really really clingy today. To the point of ALWAYS having to have a hand on me. Right now seriously she is sitting beside me with her hand on my shoulder constantly patting me.... which normally I could stand but I feel like I need space.
I feel like a horrible mom because I just called them brats and told them to get away from me.... I was just at that point that I couldn't take one more thing... DH won't be home till next tuesday or wednesday so I will have no breaks. I can't even get a break when I am sleeping because they always end up in bed with me.... to the point of pushing me out of the bed and when I try to lay on the couch they follow me in there and once again push me off of it.
Is it soooo bad that I need a break????? I can't even go to the bathroom by myself.... if I close the door they stand out side of it screaming banging on the door. It doesn't matter if I am shitting, peeing, or throwing up they are right there... my little audience of 2.
So go ahead bash away.... I know that I am a horrible mother for posting this... but I had to get it out somewhere.