I have been in such a serious depressive funk lately, I have had to force myself to stay busy from the minute I wake up to the minute I go to bed. Otherwise I'm afraid if I am alone with my thoughts I will just completely break down.
But really, doing this is just treading water. For my family's sake, I can't allow myself to hit rock bottom but I don't want to stay where I am either... how do I find the courage to tell the world to f*ck off and live it the way I want to? Or how do I find the courage to end it?