Am I wrong for cutting her out of my life??? *May be a trigger post*
A lot of people dont fully understand why I cut my mother out of my life. Mainly because I cant tell them the whole story (or dont feel its their business). But after 24 years of her abuse and psychotic behavior I am FINALLY free!!
Growing up I had a really bad childhood. My mother and father divorced when I was 2 and my mother bounced from man to man. She ALWAYS put them first. But it wasn't until she met her permanent live in boyfriend that things truly got bad at age 5.
He sexually abused me from that point until I was 16 years old and ran away. I tried several times to tell my mother but every time she either brushed me off or said I was lying for attention. After a while I stopped trying to tell anyone. I thought if my own mother wouldn't believe me then who would??? She was also physically and emotionally abusive to me.
I always felt there was something mentally wrong with her because she would go from points where everything was fine and pretended to be a great mom..then it would be hell. She would hit me, pull my hair and emotionally abuse me for almost no reason sometimes.
When I was 16 I finally found the courage to try and get away from the whole situation. I just couldnt take it anymore..so I ran away to my grandmothers and told her the entire thing. I think my family was very shocked but at the same time they knew her b/f so they werent completely shocked. Thank the Lord they believed me and took me to the police. He was eventually charged and convicted but hardly got any time which was obviously upsetting.
After everything I tried to move on with my life and forgive my mother. The hardest part was even through the trial she still didnt believe me and took his side.
Eventually she "decided" she believed me. She was in my life but she was always very controlling and demanding. For a while I put up with it because I thought I had to since she was family. Once my daughter was 3 I just couldnt do it anymore. I knew it was wrong the way she was still treating me (still very controlling, always putting me down and constantly flipping out on me).
So at that point I realized I had to be strong for not only my sake but my daughter's. I didnt want to set a bad example for her and think it was ok to let people treat you like that (family or not). Plus I was afraid of how she would treat my daughter and I NEVER trusted her enough to let her be alone with my daughter or even watch her.
But so many people including family think I am wrong for finally breaking ties. I just couldnt do it anymore...Am I really so wrong??