I am going anon for obvious reasons. First, this is embarrassing and second, I am a well known member here.
So, as I said, porn is ruining my life- well, more so my marriage, which IS part of my life.
My husband has a serious addiction to it, he would rather watch porn than come to me for sex. We have sex maybe twice a month if I'm lucky, he watches porn every day, sometimes more than once a day.
I have told him how much it hurts me, how it makes me feel worthless, pathetic and like a piece of shit and he says "it's all in my head". He then makes excuses like "we have 4 kids, we don't have time for sex" or "I started watching porn when I was young, it's impossible for me to stop" (mind you, this didn't become an issue until a few years ago, we'd been married 2 years and together for 6 years).
It's wrecking havoc in our home life, we fight- A LOT. I have asked him to start therapy, even said I would go with him and he refuses, says he doesn't "need it".
I don't know what to do anymore. My self esteem is gone and I feel like a worthless bag of shit.