I don't know what to do with my son. I constantly run out of ideas. I'm a ftm and a sahm and I seriously don't know what to do all day. I feel like I'm constantly cleaning up messes that never get clean. When I get to frustrated I prop him up and turn on and cartoons or busy rhymes and go outside and smoke going that be falls asleep. It sometimes works. When I get back inside I just hide and clean, but of course by the time dh gets home the place looks exactly the same if not worst.
I try not to chain smoke but it's the only time I get time for myself. I don't even want a cig half the time I some but it gives me a chance to escape.
I seriously don't know what to do anymore