I'm sorry I've been such an asshole. Looking back I am ashamed for the things I've said and the way I acted. It was like a movie I was watching and had no control over. I regret a lot of the last 3 months, and wish I could take it back.
I'm sorry for pretending everything was fine until I blew up in a rage. That was not me. I should have been honest about what I was going through in my head.
I'm sorry for the days I didn't get out of bed. For the days that I didn't allow anyone to talk to me. For the days I spent crying and screaming.
I'm sorry to everyone who's feelings were hurt, who was left in confusion after one of my nonsensical rants.
I'm sorry for nearly tearing apart my family and marriage.
Thanks for still being here for me, as I do everything in my power to be a better person.