I've Been Through a Tragedy and My Stepdaughter Says This To Me!
About 5 years ago, I was 5 months pregnant and my husband and I were in a terrible car crash. My husband was killed and I was badly hurt and lost my baby.
About two years later, I was working as a secretary at the elementary school while I worked on my teaching degree when I met my stepdaughter. She and I became friends and she eventually introduced me to her father. 8 months later, her father and I got married. Kylee's mother died when she was 3 so I'm the only mother Kylee has and we are very close. We have been married a little over two years now and I just found out that I am pregnant. I was using birth control and I adamantly told my husband I didn't want another baby, even though he wanted one. However, I got pregnant anyway. I knew for three weeks before I told anyone. This morning, I was puking in the bathroom when Kylee (now 10) came in to see if I was ok. After some talking, I told her that I was pregnant. She got really excited and then realized that I wasn't. She asked me why and I told her the truth. I never wanted to have a baby after I lost my first one. It may sound silly but I don't think I could survive that pain again. I was devastated when I lost my baby and, even though I know that many people conceive and have healthy pregnancies and babies after a miscarriage, it just wasn't worth the risk (yes, Kylee and I talk about things like this. She knew about my miscarriage before I even met her father). This is what she had to say to me.
"You're a wonderful mom. Every baby deserves to have a mom like you. I know that I'm very glad that your my mommy and I'm sure that the baby in your belly was sent from heaven just for you. I want you to be happy. It's a Christmas miracle! It's ok. Daddy and I will take care of you. We'll wrap you in bubble wrap until the baby is born. How does that sound?" I started crying and sat there (on the bathroom floor) crying and holding Kylee. I'm telling my husband tonight and I'm going to be honest and let him know that I'm scared. I'm thinking I might try some counseling too. Wish me luck!