I still see her like that in my dreams, ill look over at dh in the middle of the night and see her face. How do I get this to stop! ?! I can never sleep, I'm up all night checking my family to make sure no one else has died. The pain I go through every night is unbearable now. I have tried therapy but it seemed to only make me worse, taking about it brought it all back up over and over again, reliving this breaks my heart every time. I was told I have ptsd but no tools to help me live with it.
The autopsy shows nothing, she was only 46 and pretty healthy. They ruled out as sids for adults. Has anyone heard of this? Did you get any real answers? Have you ever dealt with something similar, losing and finding a loved one like this? Will the pain ever go away? Will I ever be normal again? Her 1 year HEAVENniversary is the 4th, and that's the same day my dad goes for surgery to remove a kidney from cancer. Idk how I will get through the day! My heart is broken and my soul is shattered.
I'm sorry for any typos or mistakes. Thank you for taking the time to read and give some support or answer any questions. Please share any encouragement that I will one day be normal again. I know i posted this a year ago when it happened, but I'm still in the same spot and idkv what to do anymore. Have a good night ladies and again thank you if you made it to the end
*please cherish every moment you have with the ones you love, you never know if today is their (or your) last. *