I grew up pretty much without parents. My mom and dad split up when I was 1 1/2 years old. My mom had custody of me until I was about 5 or 6 then my dad had custody and my mom had visition rights. My dad didn't care what I did and my mom just wanted a boyfriend. I saw my mom being a slut all my life. She'd hook up with guys to fuck them and flirt with other guys and girls at the same time. Also as soon as she broke up with one guy she would get together with another guy.
Long story short:
I was raped by two different guys (my uncle by marriage and my mom's most recent ex (they were together for almost 7 years)). Neither one of the guys got charged with rape because with the uncle I got sent to my moms in Wshington state (was living in Oregon with my dad) and when I came back I was told too much time had passed. Then with my mom's ex I was traumatized so I didn't want to do a rape kit. Neither one of my parents believed my about the rapes. My mom says I wanted her ex to do it to me. My dad thought I wanted attention with my uncle even though I wrote my aunt 4 notes explaining in detail what he did. My mom thought I made everything up because the last time her ex raped me it was on the couch while I was on my period but since there was no blood nothing happened. I was put in 4 different foster homes from the ages of 13-18. I wish I could go back and put both of those guys in jail for what they did but there is nothing I can.
I would like someone to talk to that has been through what I have been through or at least something close to what I've been through. I feel like I need help but I don't want to go to a counselor and have them give me some medication or something. I don't know what to do.