My anniversary is coming up soon. Money has been tight and so I told DH maybe we shouldn't do gifts. I said I won't be happy but don't really see an option. During year I feel guilty buying things so I alwys feel like b-days/anniversaries is a perfect time to splurge. It's a big anniversary and I would have LOVED jewelry, but it's not happening so I know I'm going to be disappointed. I've wanted an anniversary band and wanted to reset my diamond for so long. My husband knows that, but we really can't do it. Part of me hopes that maybe next year we can - especially if nothing happens this year. Ugh! Feeling SO depressed. There are 2 ways this is going to go down:
1 - DH will order nice flowers and no gift. I'll be short tempered, miserable and annoyed all day b/c things are not as I would have liked.
2 - DH
will order flowers and get a smallish gift - something that I could have
easily gotten myself and not any kind of jewelry. Worse I'll feel like I
should have gotten him something - but he'll be the one who changed the
rules. Still be miserable and short tempered, annoyed. (stupid
expectations that I have)
Ugh! i sound like a spoiled brat. I know... Somehow I always ruin everything:( I just miss the days of getting surprised with presents -randomly! Doesn't happen anymore b/c busy life, kids, no money etc. That's why I feel like it should happen on anniversary.
Myabe I am looking to be bashed for my thoughts-maybe I deserve it or am just looking for a little perspective... Don't know what to feel. Just wish I can skip that day this year. I just miss the old days..things were so much easier. By the way, I'm not a high maintenaince person in general. I use coupons, buy things at consignment stores, rarely get nails/hair done and I don't usually buy things that I don't need (at least not often).
I'll add one more thing that will probably make me look even worse - I think that we will be celebrating by going out for dinner or a show.
I know everything is truly a matter of perspective and often get a kick in the butt reminder to be thankful for a good husband, kids, health, home etc. We both have decent jobs and work hard at what we do.
I guess that sums things up.
(Posted here b/c annonymous option)