Let me start off with im 20 and yes ive made mistakes. I live at home i planned to move out a few months after my baby was born but i was sick really sick and the doctor still dont know whats wrong. My mom doesnt understand she doesnt care i cant explain that part its just how shes always been. I have very bad memory problems (and many other problems) and will be having a mri soon. What comes first in my head is my baby then myself and then my online college class work and then what ever mess my baby made or my mess. Thats not good enough. I have a younger bother and hes a clean freak so he does the dishes. So thats the only part of my mess i dont clean. I vacuum and sweep ect. Its just not done right away. Im trying my best. I got my ged last year. I started online college in jan. Im looking for work. Its been harder because the doc said a sit job only and i agree. Im not even sure my body could handle that but im going to try. My moms boyfriend comes over at the end of the night so 9pmish. Of course nothing is clean yet so he assumes its like this all the time. He says im doing nothing with my life and i should get off my ass and do something. My mom just shrugs it off. So a couple nights ago they got in a fight about me and he said to my mom that im a lazy self centered good for nothing complaining foul mouth bitch. She just brushed it off and kinda agreed with him. I already feel like shit because i have no income and im having a hard time getting a job. Ill be going to a couple new temp agencies monday. Im also trying to get my welfare straightened out (i currently dont have any).i feel like a failure and it really hurts when he said that. Im really trying. I know some on here will says its excuses ect ect. I wish i could get out there and get any job and i wish i could wake up every day and feel ok enough.