so I am but I don't wanna go into crazy details at the moment...just support.
I've been clean for 6 months and these past few weeks have been extremely tough at times. I started smoking weed and drinking in 7th grade. In 8th grade I tried pills and coke for the first time. When I got in HS partying became priority over everything! I was lucky enough to never get into meth, crack or heroin...I seen what it was doing to people around me and that scared me off. My d.o.c will always been weed and alcohol. I know people think "wow weed really?!" but for me yes really. I smoked for 10 years before I finally stopped and it was extremely hard to just let it ago. My DH is 5 years sober from alcohol. My thoughts sometimes when I get stressed or bored is "hey I really wanna get fucked up in any way I can!" and sometimes I'll think "If I could only have a glass of wine I'll be fine!" I won't do that for my DH sake :) I guess it's kinda like well if I just had one thing to relax me for one night I'd be fine but I know deep down it wouldn't! Everything I have would go down the drain and that's the last thing I want to happen!!!