I get drunk 3 or 4 times a week. I am conscious of this decision, I do it when I feel stressed and need to let my mind relax. I have had 5.5 drinks in the last 3 hours, I am drunk, I will not be taking care of my DD. My husband is home and will take care of her.
I have a mood disorder and I have ocd. I will not take medications that make is so that I can not take care of DD during the day when I am alone with her. So I drink at night after she goes to bed to be able to sleep and stop my mind from running non stop about all the things I didn't do during the day I conpulsively feel like I should have.