He has been sober for 6 months. He came home and he was so drunk I am not even sure how he drove home. I told him I was leaving and I began to pack my stuff but he started crying saying he loved me and he needed help and he wanted to go back to rehab. We have been married 18 years we have two kids 14 and 16...... he has been in and out of rehabs for the last 13 years. He is a major alcoholic. I have stood by him while he got so drunk he peed in corners in our room......hit holes in the wall. I am a OB/GYN and he even came to my practice and accused me of having an affair with one of my 80 year old partners, while drunk. I love him, I really do and I want to be there for him but a part of me just wants to leave him. I want to make sure he gets help first. i wouldnt leave him like this. I just dont think he will stay sober. He has been in rehab 5 times. Would this make me a a incredibly horrible person. I just think I am done. Maybe I am not strong I guess.