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Uh no i'm not strong!

Posted by on Apr. 6, 2014 at 11:35 PM
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Everyone says i'm strong. They are amazed at my strength through it all. They admire my desire to be as involved as much as possible regardless of my pain level. I get told this many days a week. I think they are confused. Because this gal is weak, sad and tired of living a life of pain. I cannot accept being permanently disabled at 31. I feel like a complete failure as a mother. My son spends more time with his mema & papa (my parents) than me due to my health issues. Now, once again i'm facing another back surgery. I long to feel better!! But I am scared something may go wrong like my first back surgery did. I had to move back in with my parents bc i'm unable to tend to myself some days not mention my special needs child. I am beyond frustrated with myself at how weak and sensitive I am. I cry at nothing. I think of death as a means to escape the pain. No, i'm not suicidal. Depression has taken over my life. Pain has me in shackles YET others claim i'm strong. I'm sorry but I do not get it. Uhm.. I really do not :( this is just a vent... Does anyone feel this way?
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isaiahbellamom
by Silver Member on Apr. 6, 2014 at 11:37 PM
Hugs
blsdbyangel07
by Evil Food Lady on Apr. 6, 2014 at 11:38 PM
Thanks!

How are you? I have not seen you in forever.


Quoting isaiahbellamom: Hugs
isaiahbellamom
by Silver Member on Apr. 6, 2014 at 11:40 PM
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I'm good been around lurking mostly. I hope things get better for you.

Quoting blsdbyangel07: Thanks!

How are you? I have not seen you in forever.


Quoting isaiahbellamom: Hugs
vamaria
by Silver Member on Apr. 6, 2014 at 11:40 PM
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I get it. But I still think you're strong.

My new favorite explanation for people is the spoon theory. Are you familiar with it?

ColtsFan1912
by FriendoftheFoot on Apr. 6, 2014 at 11:42 PM
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Oh hon (((hugs))) I truly wish there was more I could do. I wish we lived closer.

Know I pray for you every single day. 

& I shall flood this post with a few song that helped me out during my darkest times. I hope you don't mind.

I love you chica (((Hugs)))

ColtsFan1912
by FriendoftheFoot on Apr. 6, 2014 at 11:43 PM
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MrsDavidB25
by Stacey on Apr. 6, 2014 at 11:44 PM
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 I'm sorry. I wish you the best.

ColtsFan1912
by FriendoftheFoot on Apr. 6, 2014 at 11:45 PM
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This one is a favorite right now\

THE CURE FOR PAIN by Jon Foreman

"I'm not sure why it always goes downhill
Why broken cisterns never could stay filled
I've spent ten years singing gravity away
But the water keeps on falling from the sky

And here tonight while the stars are blacking out
With every hope and dream I've ever had in doubt
I've spent ten years trying to sing these doubts away
But the water keeps on falling from my eyes

And heaven knows, heaven knows
I tried to find a cure for the pain
Oh my Lord, to suffer like You do
It would be a lie to run away

So blood is fire pulsing through our veins
We're either riders or fools behind the reigns
I've spent ten years trying to sing it all away
But the water keeps on falling from my tries


And heaven knows, heaven knows
I tried to find a cure for the pain
Oh my Lord, to suffer like You do
It would be a lie to run away
A lie to run, it would be a lie
It would be a lie to run away

It keeps on falling (x4)
Water keeps on falling from my eyes

And heaven knows, heaven knows
I tried to find a cure for the pain
Oh my Lord, to suffer like You do
It would be a lie to run away
It would be a lie to run away
It would be a lie to run away"

TheSilence
by Tá mé an mó on Apr. 6, 2014 at 11:45 PM
The fact that you wake up every morning says how strong you are.
It's not easy to live with pain and depression and not cave in.
You are strong.
sunsetchick34
by Gold Member on Apr. 6, 2014 at 11:46 PM
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Sadly i know ur pain both emotionally n physically. Keep ur head up.
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