Not even sure how to approach this topic, because I know someone will get offended any way I go at it.
I have this fantasy of my SO forcing me to have sex. Being forceful, out of control, just taking me in every way. I can't explain why. I've never experienced sexual assault of any kind, I've never had this desire in other relationships. In fact, I've always been completely in control of everything in past relationships. My SO is the only one I've ever been on equal footing with, the only one I've trusted enough to let go of my control with.
And I guess this is just an extension of that. We've done some pretty wild things, I know he'd never take it further than I was truly okay with, we have safewords and understand each other. I trust him completely, maybe that's why the fantasy keeps occurring to me.
It feels so depraved and fundamentally wrong, but right at the same time. I just don't know how to even ask for it. Has anyone ever ventured into these waters before? Did you ask? How did your partner respond?