I had an abortion 2 months ago. I didn't want to but my body doesn't react well to pregnancy. Specifically my heart. We were being careful I was using Depo. While I search for a DR willing to tie my tubes despite only having one child and being 24.
I didn't realize I was pregnant till I collapsed at work I was hospitalized for 3 days. And the realized I was pegnant. My cardiologist told me that my body is doing what it did before causing my heart to beat erratically. So I schedualed an abortion. My husband was working out of town and my doctor told me I needed to do it as soon as possible. So I asked a really good and close friend to take me and be my ride home.
I cried through out the procedure. Because I would LOVED to have another child. But my health has to come first. As well as my family. They need me too.
The problem comes from my friend talking about it to a mutual friend. And she was FURIOUS that I aborted. That I 'threw away' something she would give anything to have but can't. So now she is talking bad about me. calling me a murderer. Telling everyone about it. Most of our friends know how much I wanted another child. how devastating it was for me to find out I couldn't. And have supported me but. MY rabidly anti-choice friends have treated me like crap (i'm not calling them pro-life because they AREN'T since MY LIFE doesn't seem to matter). I was told I should have died. That my baby deserved to live. And one even went so far as to go to our preacher. (who knew about it. I went to him for counciling after because I was so broken up about it and he thank, God love him, essentially told her to mind her business.)
WHAT??????? I collapsed and was hospitalized. I could barely breathe!!!
I'm pissed that my friend blabbed my personal business. I'm still dealing with having to terminate my pregnancy and now I am getting snotty glances at my daughters dance class (they have heard I had an abortion) and anytime a large group of us get together.
How do I deal with this. I WANT to tell them off but am trying to be less bitchy.
And if the only thing you have to contribute is to call me a murderer or condem me too. Please don't bother to post or comment. You have no idea how hard this has all been.