In my own home. I need out so bad. I need out of the house without the kids, and without DF. I need a girl friend...
I have two girls that are kind of friends. Their SOs work with my DF so they come here and we fix dinner blah blah...the one girl, we'll call her Sarah, is 21 and just...I don't want to say dumb but she has 0 life experiance. Her SO is 28, they both dropped out of college last month so they could move three hrs away back with HER parents, who are rich, because...ya know. Life is hard. Anyway, they leave in May. I've known her for a year and I've really tried reaching out. She's they type if you say "let's go for a drink sometime. Hey want to try that new class at the gym? Are there any movies out you want to see?" She'll get excited and say "yes yes that'd be great!" And then I never hear from her....we get along great I think. We're always laughing and being silly :-/ but...I've never been able to keep girls as friends very well
The second, we'll say Lauren, is totally more my speed. I think she's very serious when she says she wants to get together, but we've just started getting close over the past month. We had planned to go take a class at her gym yesterday but she was sick. She works as an independent sales consultant for Philip Morris, so we thought we'd try today but she had too much work to catch up on. Not her fault, I'm not upset at her at all - but we had planned this last week and I was SO excited to finally be out of the house...but I'm stuck here. It's so sad that I was this excited to take a step class, really. I've become a SAHM and plan to stay that way for at least another year or two when prices go down on daycare (infant daycare blows). My DF is absolutely willing to take me out, and we've gone a few times since 9mo dd was born but with no friends...we have no sitters either. We've talked about hiring someone from one of those baby sitter sites but it scares me a bit.
Honestly when she called and had to cancel, I cried...a lot. I've tried so hard to make friends and I really do think when Lauren and I get the chance we'll be great friends. I just needed out this week. I've texted Sarah asking if she'd want to go dancing Saturday but the text has been ignored for two days. I take my girls to the park and try to strike up conversations with other moms and get the polite starter conversation and nothing else. I go to all my 6yr olds school stuff and try to make friends but again...nothing. I think part of the issue is where I'm located. Lexington is very affluent, people my age (26)are either still in college or just getting their career established. The moms I'm around most of the time, like all of my 6yr old classmates, are over 10 yrs older than me. My DF has offered for me to go out and do something today...mall, movie, gym, whatever...but I just need a friend. Someone that isn't him that I can tell all my girly shit to and just have.
Im sorry I have to come on here and be emotional. I don't have another outlet right now and I just feel so...not worth anyone's time
*end pity party*