I can't grasp this. The finality of it, the shock. I don't even know what happened yet, why she died. I was just sitting in my living room at 3:30 when I got a call. I don't understand, I mean, she had MS but she was doing so well. She seemed okay and happy. I talked to her last night! It just hurts so much. Tomorrow my brothers and I are going to the funeral home. I'm scared and I don't know how to deal with this. Pease, does anyone have any advice for me on how to deal with this?
ETA: Thank you so much to everyone for the kind words and condolences. I really appreciate it, it helps a lot to know that what I feel is normal. I didn't mean to back away from my post, but I've been on the phone a lot today. I also want to say that I'm sorry to everyone here who has lost someone they love as well.
For now, I think I'm just going to try to get some rest. Thank you all.