Allow me to begin this post by saying that I am not against homosexuality or gay marriage. Everyone has the right to love and share their lives with whomever they so desire.
Growing up I missed the opportunity to have a male figure/father in my life. I truly wanted one and was told by my moms that men were not necessary and that I was being silly. In high school they were downright rude to every boy I brought home because he was not their chosen gender for me to have a relationship with. They introduced me to other, younger lesbians in the vain hope that I might "change my mind" and realize that a man was not the answer to my future. I resented them for not coming to terms with the fact that I am straight. I like men, am attracted to men and I can't change that.
While attending college, I met my DH. They were angry, disappointed and felt "taken" for everything they'd done for me. (Their words exactly). They stopped visiting me, and always seemed to be going out of time at my breaks and holidays. Before I graduated I had not seen them for 2 years. In short, they abandoned me because of my sexual orientation. I an angry, disappointed and wonder why they did this to me. In fact, why did they adopt me? To fulfill a need in themselves?
Three months ago I gave birth to our baby girl. I called to tell them the great news hoping they'd be interested. They were underwhelmed. I suppose I should have know better because they did not attend my wedding and they never acknowledged DH.
Right now I am searching for my parents. I want to meet them someday if they'll have me. I want a mom and dad to love me as much as I love my DD. DH says I should do what feels is right, but not get my hopes up because it would be too far to fall.