DS just brought out a mug and card he made for his dad :(
It's so sad. I read the card, it's handmade and says "I miss you." and has a picture of a crying face ds drew.
The mug is decorated with ds's drawings and has a ribbon tied around the handle.
It's so sad. Ds cried as he showed it to me and told me "I made this. Ramone (classmate) made a mug and card for his mom but I didn't want to, I wanted to make this for daddy even if he not allowed to have it."
Goddamit wish my ex DH could just pull his shit together! I hate this. I fucking HATE this. Why does ds have to go through this pain? I wish I could force the dumb asshole to just be right. Take the medications the psych. gives you. Piss in the damn cup the social worker hands you. Act normal for a whole damn hour for your kid. You can go back to be a douche after that, but for ONE HOUR a month, can't you get your shit together for the kid who loves you and doesn't even care that you are a douche?!
I told Z I would ask the social worker to pass them along to exdh, and he was happy. Ectatic actually.
How shitty is it when your kid gets excited that a social worker will pass a gift along? That the closest my kid gets to having a relationship with his dad is putting a gift in a social workers hands to be passed along a few weeks later.
I'm just venting because it's shitty and there isn't anything I can do to fix this or prevent this pain. And I so want to fix it and protect ds from this pain. Bash away.