I just want this to be a dream. Update! ETA. UPDATE2!update 3
I'll be induced Saturday at 730 am. The dr is going to redo the ultrasound to make sure there is no change. Dh went to the funeral home today and set up arrangements for a memorial and to have Lucas cremated. We picked out a beautiful urn and will have a photographer do pictures for us after Lucas is born. It still feels like a dream, like I'll wake up and this will all be some horrible joke. My friend megan, aka Aslen, has been amazing through this. She set up the photographer and called funeral homes for us to make the process easier.
ETA thank you ladies for your support. I haven't really replied much because I've been busy with the kids. I hope you all have an amazing 4th of July and hug your babies tight.
Update2: when the doctor did the ultrasound it showed that Lucas had a small amount of fluid around his face. Hooefully this means his lungs will not be as bad a first thought. He is going to schedule me for a bladder tap on Tuesday and Thursday and if his kidney damage is not too severe we will go to Charlotte to have a valve put in. Keep your fingers crossed for good news ladies!
Update 3/ We found out Thursday that his kidneys are pretty much shot, they're estimating less than 5% function, his chest is about 1/3 the size it should be so he has severly underdeveloped lungs. Also, he's only measuring at 18 weeks when I'm actually 22 week. We were denied the bladder valve(shunt). We decided not to intervene an let the pregnancy continue/end naturally.