i think im developing an eating disorder and i don't know how to stop
so i know I'm far from fat but i don't like what i see when i look at my stomach or my much bigger thighs. I started exercising and i still don't like what i see, what's scarring me now is i don't eat that much during the day in hopes that i will lose the fat on my stomach.
I've been shaming myself by taking pictures of my stomach and looking at them when I'm hungry so that i wont be tempted to eat.
i think about my fat almost every min of the day and it makes me very depressed I'm not what i,used to be. I used to be able to eat like a pig, anything i wanted when ever i wanted and now I'm scared to eat at all.
i have been in therapy for this for about 4 months now and no matter what she says, no matter what anyone says, i see my fat and i hat myself. I cry every day because i know this is an unhealthy way to think. I don't know how to stop, therapy isn't working, what do i do :(