Idk why honestly. I'm pregnant and on hydrocodone, could be withdrawal, could be hormones. I was getting up to go into the living room to watch TV since my df wanted to play his video game, I've been in bad post surgery pain the past few days, but I'm almost out of pain pills. I was supposed to run out the middle of week before last but I'm stretching them out. Before i mostly only needed them for wound repacking so I'd only take one or two a day, but recently the pain has gotten worse, but I need to make them stretch til I see the surgeon Monday since it's the weekend. Well i got upset about that and about having to just deal with the pain, then my df was acting like he had a problem, so I ended up bawling my eyes out in our bedroom doorway. I guess I upset myself so much I made myself sick then somehow, I guess from vomitting I peed myself, which upset me more. I cried for awhile longer... then my df chose to sit with me but of course got irritated because he didn't get to relax in his words.
I had no control of it. I hate how emotional I've been. I hate being so needy. I feel like it's irritating people. My anxiety is up, I know because my obsessive compulsive tendencies are up. The anxiety could've contributed or made it worse. I wanna be normal again. My case manager/personal nurse with the insurance gave me a few numbers to call for counselors or therapists and if these feelings persist I may have to call some of them.