eta: pics of kids THANK YOU he cheated and I'm back
I was not well known on this site, but I have been a member for a couple years. I've had 2 accounts.
I took a month break from CM because I went through Hell... and finally tonight I felt strong enough to get back on here and share some of my story.
I am a newly single mom. On July 3rd, I caught my dh cheating.
I wanted to say thank you to you all.
For months, I made anonymous posts about my failing marriage and how depressed I have been.
I have an 18 month old dd and a 3 month old ds.
It is because of YOU ladies that I caught him cheating.
It's because of all the nights I spent on CM crying, and all of the responses that built me tougher.
Even the nasty anons were part of my motivation.
Every post I made, I was offered so much support and advice.
I even hit a low point where I wanted to die, because I felt like I was unloved.
When I felt the weight of the world on my shoulders, you ladies said "suck it up, bitch. You're a mom and your babies need you. I'm here for you"
And those words made me stronger.
When I was in the hospital in labor with my son, I felt so alone. I knew he was texting her... worrying about her and missing her, and hating me.
I was feeling so alone and so rejected, so insecure.
The first thing I did was post on CM that I had my son, and I received so much love and encouragement.
Yes I got nasty comments as well (kiss my ass whoever said them).
But the support motivated me.
I got myself into counselling. I got my ducks in a row.
I got to know myself and respect myself enough to know I deserve better.
So on July 3rd, I was feeling strong. I was feeling so strong that I got my ass out of bed at 10 pm and said, FUCK SLEEPING THROUGH THIS, I'm gonna go fox my life.
My kids were sleeping. I showered, did my makeup, my hair,and called my mom to come over and watch the kids, I told her I had business to tale care of.
I kissed my babies and I left around 3 am... to go catch him in the act.
I had enough with sleeping and believing he's at work when my heart was telling me otherwise.
So I went to their meet up spot, and I hid. And I waited to see them together and when I did.... a beautiful, strong, confident woman appeared.... ME.
I marched my ass right over to them and I asserted myself.
I told her that the karma she has coming to her is gonna make her wish everyday that she had been a better woman. And I told him to pack his shit.
I went home, then decided that I don't want him to pack his shit.
I wanna pack mine and start over. That house has too many sad memories.
I got me and the kids out of there and I left my ring.
It's been a very difficult month, but I'm so proud of myself.
I have re enrolled myself into school, I am working part time at a job I love, I have my kids all the time because their dad is too stupid to want to see them, and I have lost weight.
I look amazing and I feel amazing.
It's been a month since I've been pushed, shoved, yelled at, cheated on, slapped..... I'M FUCKING FREE.
I have my whole life ahead of me and I love myself.
I'm one awesome freaking person, and I'm hott too!
I am worth so much more than I was getting.
The anons that called me a pussy for not leaving, thank you. Thank you for saying that, you were right.
The ladies who recommended support groups, thank you. I joined a few.
The ladies who gave me cyber hugs and words of wisdom, thank you. You helped me realize my strength.
I'm back on here now amd I'm a happy momma again. (:
I WANTED TO ADD AN ETA....
There are so many replies and of course I fall asleep after making the post. Haha, but the baby is awake so I am too. (:
To answer a couple questions, the group Detective Wives Club is the reason I knew he was cheating. I joined the group and would ask the ladies questions about my situation and they helped me. There are ways to catch a cheater that I never thought possible, just ask those brilliant ladies!
Also, it's true. You do feel amazing even a month out of an abusive relationship.
I mean, I'm still hurt.
I'm still grieving the loss of my marriage and the man I was once so in love with. It's tormenting. The pain is real. Very real.
But with each painful day comes relief in knowing I made the right decision.
He had no problem abusing me, I wasn't gonna let him hurt my babies. And oneday he would've.
My dd needs an example in me, so does my ds.