I'm scared to post about this because SAHMs are a more hardcore group than any gang of Hell's Angel's or Gun toting thugs you'll find on the cold hard streets of Harlem or any places like that. You talk down about them and their ways they'll mercilessly tear you from limb to limb with their words. But for the love of God, could you please try to have mercy and listen with open hearts and minds? for once? and if you can't find it in your soul to do so just please stop reading now?
I don't know what to do with myself in this SAHM life.. I thought this is what I always wanted. Long story short, I was a single mom of two kids, supported us well with a good paying job, always paid my bills on time, (and my idea of on time is not within a grace period, I mean before the due date!) my kids were always well fed and well clothed. Then I met a wonderful man, moved in together, had another kid, got married, and my husband idealy wanted me to stay home and raise our youngest. I always thought after working all my motherhood life that's what I wanted too. but I've been home with for almost a year now and we have struggled fianancially the whole time. paying bills late all the time, paying late fees, even one month didn't pay the mortgage till like the 15th of the month!!! That is totally unacceptable to me! I feel like I did a better job taking care of things as a single mom, I thought getting married and relying on a man it would be better? I also feel such a terrible loss of independance. A total loss of control. I feel kind of imprisoned. I used to have a good career. I used to have a reason to put makeup on and dress in nice clothes for the day. I miss having my own paycheck! I miss having my OWN money. I hate having to ask for money. It make me fee like such a helpless child. I know so many women are so happy being SAHMs and I am honestly so jealous of them because I am so miserable being one. How can anyone enjoy this? maybe you went strait from living with your parents and married your high school sweet heart and never knew the liberating incredible freedom of self sefficiency and independence!!! it's wonderful! So you just don't know any different than simply depending on someone to take care of you all your life... But I miss adult interaction. I miss being a contributing member of society. I knew from a young age I always wanted to be a mom, but I NEVER wanted to be a school teacher at all, so I'm sorry, maybe this makes me a shitty mom, but I am not into doing flash cards and super awesome art projects and stuff like that. I do read to them and we go the park all the time. But I just find this SAHM life to be so boring and unfullfilling and kind of depressing. I mean I can understand for the lucky ones out there who have rich husbands and you can afford to fill your days with tons of going to the mall and shopping or taking your kids to regular soccer practices, piano recitals, dance lesson, gymnastics, swimming lessons, ect... but I live in the middle of the woods, 15 minutes from the nearest anything and it's a gas station. Another 30 minutes I could get to a park and grocery stores.. Those of you who don't have rich husbands, what do you do all day? Any of you given up a career and experienced similar feelings? can you just please not bash me for not loving the sahm life like you all seem to