Then last weekend they went ape shit when I fell asleep on the couch. I work overnights and need to have a better plan for the days but I don't have a babysitter so I can sleep, I can't afford it.
So last weekend my children poured out an entire case of water bottles on my son's carpet, got into a roll of cookie dough in the fridge and flung it all over the wall, squirted lotion and hand soap all over the hallway floor, and pooped in the trash can. They are 4 and almost 7 and both know better than to fucking terrorize the house the second they are unsupervised. I was PISSED. I went off on them but now that I think about it didnt enforce any consequences, just made them clean up
So today, same thing. I fell asleep on the couch right after lunch. They decided to go in my room and get whiteboard markers and draw all over my son's wall. And get into a bunch of food and pour an entire gallon of juice on the carpet. Again...7 and 4. What the fuck. I realize last week it was more my fault but after we talked about it nonstop why the fuck would they go and do the same shit this week?!?!? Also older one cut little one's hair.
I truly lost my shit on them. We live in such a nice house and I work so hard as a single parent and pay so fucking much. How dare they. I'm so frustrated and seriously wish I could ship them somewhere for a week or even few days to clean my house and breathe. I am so pissed and so frustrated. I really truly thought about calling cps and saying please come get them I do not want these children I cant do this shit anymore. I hate myself and dont know what to do or where to go, Im honestly just so overwhelmed and thinking so many things i never thought i would about my kids :(