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An Open Letter to the Woman Who Married My Son's Dad

Posted by on Jan. 20, 2015 at 2:07 PM
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An Open Letter to the Woman Who Married My Son's Dad

An Open Letter to the Woman Who Married My Son's Dad

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I don’t hate you.       

But there’s some stuff you need to know.

The first time I heard your name was over wine and calamari at a little bar in New York City. I was on a first date with the man who would become my son’s father  your ex-boyfriend at the time  and we were going through all those first date details: Exes, favorite food; career goals. You never really came up after that.

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He took me on thoughtful dates. One I will always remember was a trip to the famous Books of Wonder in New York City. We milled around rows of children’s books, sat with our backs against the wall; had pie and coffee in the café.

It was a whirlwind. He invited me to his work holiday party. We rode the subway to the Upper East Side, mingled with his coworkers at the intimate gathering — and drank a lot of champagne. That night we conceived our son. 

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When we found out I was pregnant, we talked about our options. We were shocked, happy, confused, and scared. I was all of this with a side of serious hormone fluctuations common in the first trimester and throughout pregnancy. Still, I took a deep breath and we talked about baby names: He liked William, Dylan, and Chloe. I liked Jack and Mia. I liked Dylan for a girl. Then we chose Jack William. And he told me Mia sounded like a soccer player’s name. Those sweet moments were far and few between. Communication broke down on both ends. We argued about where we would live and how we would pay for daycare. At one point he flew home “for work” and I always wondered if it was to see you.

In those early weeks of my pregnancy, I’m sure he was overwhelmed by decisions he, as a man and soon-to-be-father, needed to make. I felt so out of control. A few weeks prior to peeing on that stick, I was thrilled with life, living in NYC with a cute boyfriend — but all that had changed now. And I imagine when you learned I was pregnant — things for you changed too. I know he was and is your great love. You never wanted me around. How many times did you wish you guys never broke up? That he never moved to New York City? Sometimes I wonder similar things: What if I didn’t go to that bar that night with my girlfriends? He and I never would have met. But I’m glad we met. I have the most perfect son.

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You know the rest of the story. Everything fell apart and he left New York City and drove back to you. The best way to explain what happened next is just … tunnel vision. I couldn’t run away, now. I was 12-weeks-pregnant and had a sonogram photo on my dresser. Mother to mother: I know you know how amazing it is to see that grainy image and flickering light that is a baby’s beating, real-life heartbeat.

A month or so after he left New York City I saw a photo of you guys online at some dinner or event. I couldn’t believe how fast you guys got back together — arms around each other. I had a little bump and was planning my move back to New Jersey. You reminded me of Brittany Snow. Then I stopped snooping on the Internet. It was too hard. A few months after our son was born, I spoke to your husband on the phone. The baby was lying next to me, as we talked … I can’t remember about what. He asked me if I was OK.

I looked him up online again before our son turned one and read your proposal story. Your engagement photos were artsy and gorgeous. And as I looked at the photo of him dipping you in the street, I wondered if you and him talked about my son at all — how did he fit into your life now, was he your stepson? Everything else was on the Internet. I saw the wedding photos and the European honeymoon page where guests could buy you a bottle of champagne, or send you on a romantic boat ride. The maternity and newborn sessions came next. (I mean, it was all online and I was curious). The timeline of his seamless adult life was beautifully unfolding with no kinks or hiccups before me. He had moved on so swiftly and easily — at least it seemed. I resented him for that. And I wondered how you felt about marrying the man who left his son. Did you wonder how I was doing?

My son is seven now and your husband has never met him – FaceTimed with him, or talked to him on the phone. Do you want him to have a relationship with his son? Do you want to meet him?

My son asks about his father and knows about him. I tell my little brown-eyed boy he’s a fast runner like his father. He has long legs like his father. He has little folds of skin near his eyes like his father. He knows about you, the nice lady his father married — his half-brother and sister. Sometimes he’s satisfied with our quick conversations. Other times, he asks if we can fly over and have pizza. “Does my dad like pizza?” I said yes, only because we ate pizza in New York City together. Do you ever think about my son or talk about him with your husband? What it will mean to your children when they find out they have a half-sibling  that their father wasn’t around for? Because I wonder about this.

What will their meeting will be like? Will it be kismet? Will the boys find themselves at the same college? Will he Facebook friend his half-sibs? Will my spitfire kiddo turn into an 18-year-old who just hops on a plane and knocks on your door? Will there be a time when he’s at your dinner table? Or drinking a beer with your husband? Will you and I ever have an awkward hug hello? It’s been seven years. Will it be a decade and still no meeting?

You didn’t do anything to me. I don’t even feel like your husband did anything, at this point. But, you are part of this triangle too. One thing I do remember telling your husband once on the phone: I don’t get to forget you or move states away. I see your face in our beautiful, thoughtful, silly child everyday. Then I asked him how he would feel if he never got to forget me … But he couldn’t answer that question.  

I took my son to Books of Wonder in New York City. It was something I had to do. We milled around the bookshelves, his little feet in the same spaces his father had stood — with me — a wrinkle in time. We sat at a table near the window and had pie. Because you never can escape reality — you might as well embrace it.

by on Jan. 20, 2015 at 2:07 PM
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LNLMommy
by Silver Member on Jan. 20, 2015 at 2:18 PM
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 I will never really get why women take their issues up with the woman and not the man. I mean I get the emotions-I went through something similar with my ex (thankfully we have no children togther). When I finally got over my emotions-I talked to HIM about it-not his gf because she didn't owe me anything.

Lunarprancer
by Betsy on Jan. 20, 2015 at 2:23 PM

 Good point.  I was just sort of moved by it, lol.

Quoting LNLMommy:

 I will never really get why women take their issues up with the woman and not the man. I mean I get the emotions-I went through something similar with my ex (thankfully we have no children togther). When I finally got over my emotions-I talked to HIM about it-not his gf because she didn't owe me anything.

 

bleumonster
by Sapphire Member on Jan. 20, 2015 at 2:27 PM
My phone kept cutting off the end and I couldn't read it all. Can you post the original link?
Lunarprancer
by Betsy on Jan. 20, 2015 at 2:28 PM

 https://www.yahoo.com/parenting/an-open-letter-to-the-woman-who-married-my-sons-108193611552.html

Quoting bleumonster: My phone kept cutting off the end and I couldn't read it all. Can you post the original link?

 

SitaStJames
by *Sita* on Jan. 20, 2015 at 2:33 PM

Does the wife even know about her husband's son with the other woman or was she kept in the dark? I think the letter should've been written to the father of her child and not his wife.

bleumonster
by Sapphire Member on Jan. 20, 2015 at 2:35 PM
It made more sense when I could read the whole thing. Why did she write an open letter to the ex's wife and post it online instead of calling her son's father and asking him why he doesn't choose to be a father to his son?
Lunarprancer
by Betsy on Jan. 20, 2015 at 2:44 PM

 I dunno, maybe a woman to woman sort of thing.

Quoting bleumonster: It made more sense when I could read the whole thing. Why did she write an open letter to the ex's wife and post it online instead of calling her son's father and asking him why he doesn't choose to be a father to his son?

 

Lunarprancer
by Betsy on Jan. 20, 2015 at 2:47 PM

 It says she knows.

Quoting SitaStJames:

Does the wife even know about her husband's son with the other woman or was she kept in the dark? I think the letter should've been written to the father of her child and not his wife.

 

SitaStJames
by *Sita* on Jan. 20, 2015 at 2:49 PM

so says the person who wrote the letter. How do we even know the wife knows? We dont even know the two other sides of the story. The husband's and his wife's sides. 

Quoting Lunarprancer:

 It says she knows.

Quoting SitaStJames:

Does the wife even know about her husband's son with the other woman or was she kept in the dark? I think the letter should've been written to the father of her child and not his wife.

 


AnHpuresugar
by Emerald Member on Jan. 20, 2015 at 2:50 PM
What kind of man just abandons his own child?
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