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Honey, I'm Home! ETA

Posted by on Jan. 31, 2016 at 9:22 PM
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I don't know if anyone noticed I was gone, but I made what might very well be the smartest decision of my life. Rehab obviously hasn't been working for me, since I keep relapsing. So I checked myself into an inpatient psych facility instead. 

The doctor was amazing.  He kept me on my Wellbutrin and added a second antidepressant before bed, as well as a med for PTSD which somehow stops the nightmares. I wake up every morning feeling so incredibly rested, it's a new experience for me.  I've been waiting on my rheumatologist appointment (it takes forever to get in) and my PCP was only willing to prescribe me 300mg of gabapentin a day, which is a tiny dose, the doctor there titrated it up to 3200mg a day and my fibromyalgia pain is decreased probably 90%.  I walked 3.2 miles yesterday just because I wanted to and I was hardly sore at all today. I had been taking ibuprophen around the clock to keep the pain from being completely debilitating, it didn't help much and is REALLY bad to take after gastric bypass, now I only take it first thing in the morning if I'm particularly stiff.  Plus I asked him to start me on naltrexone which is a medication shown to reduce cravings for alcohol.

I feel better than I have in my life with the exception of my pregnancy, I felt great then.  I have energy and motivation to actually do things, rather than sit in front of the TV and drink wine.  Like I said, I WALKED yesterday, by choice. There was an AA meeting a mile away, I decided to walk.  After the meeting we all walked up to a deli and hung out there for another couple of hours.  I could have taken the T home then, but I decided to walk back instead. I didn't get home until midnight and slept like a baby. I checked my GPS today and the walk was 3.2 miles.

The only thing that's a little funky right now is that my meds make me a little stoned.  Sometimes more than a little stoned.  Especially my bedtime meds.  I take them at 9 and my roommate at the hospital used to keep me up as late as possible afterwards because apparently I'm hysterical.  I know that will go away with time, but for right now I'm walking rather than driving when it's feasible and when it's not I time my driving around my meds.  My son is going to be staying with my parents for a while so I can really focus on fixing me right now. We talk multiple times a day and see each other a lot as well. It's hard as hell being away from him, but I need to focus on getting well right now. I'm going to a day program 10 to 3 for the next few weeks plus hitting a meeting a day, alternating between 12 step and SMART Recovery.  I'm guardedly optimistic at this point.

ETA: Something I posted on page 3 reminded me, I got the results of my endometrial biopsy this morning, no cancer, just really wonky peri-menopause. 

by on Jan. 31, 2016 at 9:22 PM
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Anonymous
by Anonymous 1 on Jan. 31, 2016 at 9:26 PM
I don't think I know who you are, but I'm glad you're getting the help you need. ((Big hugs))
graybealgirl
by Platinum Member on Jan. 31, 2016 at 9:27 PM
Congratulations
jabs54
by Ruby Member on Jan. 31, 2016 at 9:34 PM

Good job!  Keep it up.  Your son will be so proud of you :)

Uzma_mom_of_2
by Silver Member on Jan. 31, 2016 at 9:36 PM
I'm glad you're getting real help that is making a difference.
MenopauseManiac
by Ruby Member on Jan. 31, 2016 at 9:36 PM

People on here seem to love me or hate me.  Well, at least I'm never boring.

Quoting Anonymous 1: I don't think I know who you are, but I'm glad you're getting the help you need. ((Big hugs))


ColleenF30
by Lube Girl on Jan. 31, 2016 at 9:39 PM

I am happy to hear things are looking up for you!!!

Anonymous
by Anonymous 2 on Jan. 31, 2016 at 9:41 PM
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I noticed you were gone and enjoyed having fewer crazy bitchy rants and attacks on here.  You are not nice to others so I didn't miss you.  Hopefully whatever help you're getting is big. 

MenopauseManiac
by Ruby Member on Jan. 31, 2016 at 9:43 PM
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Don't worry, I'll continue to put people in their place when they're being cunts.  You know, like people who say nasty things hiding behind an assnon.

Quoting Anonymous 2:

I noticed you were gone and enjoyed having fewer crazy bitchy rants and attacks on here.  You are not nice to others so I didn't miss you.  Hopefully whatever help you're getting is big. 


Anonymous
by Anonymous 3 on Jan. 31, 2016 at 9:44 PM
good
cutebaby06
by Ruby Member on Jan. 31, 2016 at 9:47 PM
Meh, didn't even notice you were gone.
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