This is so hard and confusing to me. Why me? Why do they choose me?
I had a dream January 28, 2013. I was in the army headed back home from war. This woman from iraq was pregnant and jumped on our bus. She gave birth to twins and was forced to leave as they were citizens and she was not. Two girls from my base team brought the newborns and said she chose me and i was told to choose names.
Last night March 3, 2013 I had another one of these dreams.
My mom and i were in a qt next to my sons' daycare. We got to the daycare and there were medics around. As we pulled in the parking lot i told my mom we forgot to go to the store and get formula. Even though i was nursing him but he was on formula at daycare. I don't remember why but i walked into the daycare and found a woman giving birth. She looked at me "you you take him and protect him". I took him and she had died soon after. I took the newborn and left. My boys, the child and i got on a bus and my mom in her car. Soon we were all home. I got the small child clean and in a warm white and blue sleeper. I looked at him and wondered why me
Why was i the one to be his protection. I looked at him remembering that we still didn't get formula. I thought "i wonder...."
I had started to nurse the child. I nursed him on one side and my youngest on the other side. My mom walked in and left then my oldest child came in and said "is that my new brother?"
I then woke up..