Ramadan will be here now Sunday when I wake up which means because I did many bad things including being very mean to some of you I will have to make repentance tomorrow after my shower so I start with a clean record on Sunday and move forward to keep it clean.
I have been trying to do it but for several months but I am lazy and selfish so I use the excuse that I am too sick. Now it is last minute and must be done. I am weak right now and don't have energy for a shower to do it tonight this late but tomorrow this no more waiting.
Before I can start clean I must try to correct my mistakes including to apologize for the very mean things I have said to some here and my bad representation as a Muslim.
Now tomorrow I can make it right with God and start Sunday morning doing the right things and keep my self doing the right things. I need to wake up Sunday forgiven and clean a record which also means trying not to fight and make a bad reflection on Islam.
I apologize to the many here I have been so nasty to. I also apologize to my Muslim sisters for making Muslims look bad with my filthy mouth and bad actions.