*Backstory* my husband has frontal lobe damage from a carbon monoxide accident. He cannot think before he says or acts. He does not have that capacity after the accident.
I dont even know what pissed him off today, but something did. He made the kids lunch and I didnt want to shower with him before he ran his sister to the airport, honestly I had a migraine and was waiting for the excedrine to kick in. Well he said "there is a ton of shit you do or dont do that annoys me.."
Silly me, I told him to tell me what. I should have shut my mouth and left it alone.
Instead he listed it all off...and then told me I was the most selfish, lazy person he knows.
And I burst into tears and told him he is right. I am selfish. I have always felt selfish about turning my step dad in for raping me and tearing apart my family. I told him that was his first sign I was selfish and if after 8 years he didnt know that, then he was fucking blind.
He said that wasnt what he meant, and I told him to get the hell out. He left to go take his sister so she didnt miss her flight.
Hes been gone an hour and I have been cleaning and crying the time. I AM lazy lately. I am depressed and can barely pull myself out of bed. I am such a failure at everything I do.