Long story short, I am now a stay at home mom and full time student. Kirk and I are back together and I have no complaints so far. I hope this continues especially after the news I got this morning from my doctor.
I had an MRI done on Friday morning. My doctor called this morning and told me my arthritis is still mild but now all five discs in my lower back are herniated. When I was 20 years old, I was told I have arthritis inmy lower back and the last two discs are bulging. I was not expecting to hear that all five are now herniated. I did not ask all the questions I have written down because I was in shock and needed some time to process this. I have been crying off and on all morning because I am scared I won't be able to run around and play with my son if things don't improve. He is only nine months old and weighs close to 20 pounds now.
She said surgery is a last option because I am only 25 years old and the discs are not pressing against my spinal cord. Physical therapy is what I have to do but it is so painful! I am curled up in a ball after each session and I am still breastfeeding so I don't want to take any meds. Also, WIC gave me a breast pump and I signed a paper saying I understand they will not pay for his formula if I take the breast pump. I cannot afford formula especially since we only have one income now. School is still going okay. My GPA is now a 3.6 instead of the 4.0 I was trying to keep. I did make the Dean's List for last Fall and hope I can manage to stay on it somehow.
I am in pain 24/7. I vacuumed my place yesterday and was on the verge of tears all day. I still feel like my back is on fire. Please tell me what you would do. Would you swith to formula? What about school? I could really use some encouraging words right now, I am so scared I will not be able to do the things I want to do later on in life.
P.S.- Here is a pic of Karter to enjoy. :)