Hi everyone! Been a long time since I was here. We have had a lot going on in our family so I haven't been on lately. Here is my update:
Kellan is turning two in9 days, I am nervous because Madison started showing her Autism signs around that time. Madison is having major behavior issues. She does fine for a few weeks but then something sets her off and she is bad for a couple of weeks. Hitting kicking, biting, etc, it sucks. Kellan is also in his naughty stage, he takes nothing seriously and is always making a mess or throwing things. I hate to say it but I have no control over my kids. They don't listen to me, time outs are a joke to them and spanking doesn't work. I pretty much hate my life at this point.
DH started becoming very verbally abusive to me about 4 months ago. He has stopped swearing pretty much, but is angry all the time. I finally told my parents about it and my Dad talked to him about it but basically praised him for being a good dad and getting us to Church. Ugh... I love my parents but they don't take me seriously. I am kinda stuck. If I leave him I have no support, and have a special needs kid and a toddler to take care of and no job. Last night we went out on a date but it ended in a fight cause he doesn't care about what I think. I told him my concerns about us like we have no plans for our future and he just gave me a blank stare and said nothing.
On top of that my businesses failed. I closed my online store first and now I am having to quit as a consultant because I am getting no sales. I have been with them a year and a half almost and have not had a single home party. I keep asking people and they say they aren't interested. My team leader even said she doesn't consider me a consultant at all. I wanted to punch her in the face, I have been working so hard and nothing has come out of it.
I am having my last Online shows this month and then handing the business over to my sister. I feel like a failure and it sucks. I don't even know who I am anymore. Not trying to be a downer but I don't see anything positive in my life right now. DH and I are barely talking anymore. Neither of us can meet each other's expectations and I am beginning to wonder why I married him in the first place.
So that's our update. Sorry it is so negative. That is part of the reason I was staying away.