I can't believe this is happening to me-day 2*Update***2/9 UPDATE**2/16 UPDATE***2/24 UPDATE ..3/22 UPDATE Page 14
I lost my job right before Christmas and applied for unemployment. I'm still waiting for it to come in and was hoping it would be direct deposited, but it wasn't. I've been renting a room in someone's house and been paying weekly. I have no more money to give for rent ad he told me I'd have to leave today if my unemployment check didn't come through so I have to leave. I already owe him one months rent. I have no internet just mobile. I have no car, I have no friends and no money and my phone payment's doe in 2 days and will get shut off. The only family I have is my daughter and she's not in Florida struggling herself and living with friends. I've never felt so alone, I have no one to help me and no place to go. I hate my life right now, it really sucks. I do have food stamps, but that doesn't help with shelter. I'm so overwhelmed right now and don't know what to do. Please pray for me. Day 2- I'm spending the night in the same shelter again tonight, I have 3 nights here and Friday will be the third. I have to make a choice here. I can stay in ths program where I am now, but can't leave the facilities for 30 days, it's a 90 day program. my other option is going to another shelter which is supposed to be the besrt in the area, but it's only for 30 days and there's a waiting list. It could take a week or more to get in. Then I'd have to stay on the street all day, go to the spot and wat for the couselor to send me to another shelter for another 3 days. It's hard doing this and this is only the second day. I don't know which one I should do, it's hard and I already am physically and emotionally exhausted. I will keep this post going and updated to let everyone know how I'm doing as long as I have a phone..........UPDATE......I am in this program since yesterday, but won't get a bed until Tuesday and sleep on a mat on the floor. This is the hardest part, I have to keep my bags with me and do nothing all day. I can't leave the facilities for a month. Once I get a bed Tuesday it will get easier and less stressful. My friend just paid for my phone which I'm thankful for and will be able to update to let everyone know how I'm doing. Thank you for all your support and for your prayers. It's an amazing thing how strangers can reach out to others you don't know and appreciate all you beautiful ladies................2/2 UPDATE ..........It's really hard staying here with some of these women. There's constant drama and a couple almost started fighting and I'm keeping to myself. Next Tuesday will be 2 weeks that I've been here officially having a bed. I have to go to classses everyday all day except weekends. I can't leave the facility for another 2 weeks, hopefully after that I will. I called unemployment last Wednesday and my case is under judification still to see if I'm eligible. Hopefully I'll get money next week by direct deposit to my bank account. I also finally got all my W2's and will talk to me case manager Monday to see if I can do my taxes online. He let me claim my unemployment weeks this past Monday online. We aren't allowed to use computers until I get to the next level of the program which is called stabilization and then can only do job searches. They won't allow me to use my laptop. Even if I get money in my bank account I can't get it since I can't leave. I hardly have any clothes because I packed lighly when I left where I was living so I wouldn't have to lug suitcases, but someone is holding my stuff for me. I finally got in the clothing room and they hardly had anything. The jeans I got didn't fit which sucked. A mom from CM sent me a package of some toiletries which I'm very grateful for. I've never been to jail in my life, but this is what it feels like. I'm doing my best to get past these next couple of weeks so I can look for work and walk out the gate. I will keep updating when I can. Thank you for your support and especially your prayers.******2/9***I will be moved to the next stage of the program this week, 1 step before I can use the computer to do job searches and be able to leave the facilities. I was told it would take 2 to 3 weeks until I can do that. It really sucx that I can't leave and look for work until then. Meanwhile I go to classes everyday except weekends when the boredom really comes in. I'm still waiting for my unemployment, they let me E file my taxes yesterday, I'm pissed that I'm barely getting anything especially since I was working. Please pray my unemployment comes through this next week, it will be going on 9 weeks and frustrating having no money. There are so many different personalities here, drama, gossiping and I keep to myself because I don't want to get involved. I have to focus on me, getting a good job, a place to live and I pray I'm never in this situation again, it's very hard and very humbling. Also, please pray for my phone not to be turned off, that my unemployment will come through so I can pay for it. If you don't see an update by the 18th that means my phone's turned off and I'll pay it when my taxes get back in about 3 to 4 weeks. Thank you for your support, prayers and to the mom who sent me a care package. God bless you.**********2/16 UPDATE********My case manager is moving me up to skills this week so I can start doing real job searches and interviews. Most people take 2 to 3 weeks to get where I'm going, but since I don't drink, drug or have mental issues I'm moving up quickly. The thing that concerns me is the walk to the bus stop is almost a mile away and walking back here after work when it's dark is kinda scary because it's not the best neighborhood. It's so hard living with so many women with so many different personalities. I pretty much keep to myself and mind my business focusing on getting that good job and my new home. This is a very humbling position to be in and since I haven't been out there in the real world, in a way I feel like an outcast, but think it's normal to feel this way. I'm even hoping to get a job working here in the computer lab helping people with their resumes, apply for food stamps or whatever help they need. Anyway, that job will come, right where God wants me to be. Please keep praying for me, I can hardly wait to live a normal life. To add I'm still waiting for unemployment, next week will be 10 weeks. I spoke with unemployment this past Monday and he said this week I should hear from them. I got my taxes back too which was quick, but hardly anything at all. It seems the more you work the more taxes they take out, but that's the government right? Also any income I get I have to save 80% which left me enough to pay my phone and get cough drops as I've been sick a week and cough through the night., Anyway, that's the way it is here with everyone coughing, I just wish I had some vitamin C drops since we get no OJ here. So I've been riding this cold with no meds and hope it goes away soon. I'll make my next update next Saturday and grateful I still have my phone which is my only form of communication. Have a nice weekend and good week everyone, thank you for your prayers.******2/24 UPDATE******I had te flu, still have the cough, but thankfully slep through the night these past 4 days. I have a prescription since Tuesday and still waiting fr the medication to get here, hopefully it will tomorrow. I have good news, I got moved up to Skills this week, my case manager's trying to get me out so I can look for work. Since I don't drink or do drugs I'm able to move up faster than the others and not saying I'm better than anyone else cause I'm not, just saying what's happenning. I now am able to access the internet in the computer lab and start looking for work. I'm also helping others with their resumes or whatever help they need. I updated my information on Careerbuilder, got a call Friday for a temp to perm job doing data entry/customer service which is perfect with 100% medical coveraged paid for, they found my resume online. I have an interview with the agency tomorrow, please pray I get this job, the location is perfect and I'd love to live in that area. I also spoke with the lady in the judificatin department from unemployment Friday. She asked me what happened, I told her and she said she sees no problems and will make a decision that day. She said that the monies will come in Tuesday with 10 weeks which I claimed. God's timing is perfect! I get the monies which I can save for an apartment, if I get this job probably won't get anymore monies which is fine because I want this job! If I get this job I should be in my new apartment in a month. All the frustration and negative feelings I've had are turning positive as I focus on my life ignoring all the BS and drama that's here as I let go f the past and living for the future. Thanks to those moms who took the time to think and pray for me and thanks to the moms who sent me care packages, God bless you all. I wil keep updating and let you all know what happens, have a nice sunday and a great week.
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