I know this group is really small but this is exactly the group I think I need. I just wrote my intro but I am going to describe some of what we are facing right now because I need to share with others who might understand where I am coming from. With anxiety/panc attacks, communication issues, depression, and meltdowns my daughter is not doing very well. Twice in the last week she has told me that life isn't worth living and that she doesn't want to be here. Even though she just saw the psychiatrist on Tuesday, I am calling her again today to emphasize my daughter's state of mind. My daughter sees the social skills therapist tomorrow (Tuesday) and the Cognitive Behavioral therapist (specialty phobias and anxiety) on Wednesday. Needless to say we are in a horrible mess slowly spiraling downward since about October. I keep telling the anxiety therapist and the psychiatrist (they share office area) what is gong on but when my daughter goes to them she won't tell them the issues. I feel like the therapist doesn't believe me. She is a cold very confrontist type therapist and my daughter hates her. She did help with some of the severe phobias but I am not so certain she is really helping with the anxiety issues. Last week this therapist told me to record the meltdowns (which are frequently hostile) so that she could confront my daughter with them. I did not like the confronting idea because I think my daughter feels bad enough as it is and she is very aware and troubled by her problems. Besides a confrontation like that might be just the thing to send her right over the edge and commit suicide. I want to prevent that not cause it. So I decided that I would try to record some of the meltdowns so that the therapist could listen (without daughter present) and would believe me. Well recordings meltdowns is not easy. Instead of recording a hostile screaming meltdown which she does have, I recorded 5 minutes of a sobbing meltdown episode where she says she doesn't want t be here anymore, she has no friends, she is so sad a lot, and why can't she be happy like other kids. It is just so sad I start to cry every time I think about it. Now that I have this recording I am not quite certain what to do withit. I have to use it to get the anxiety therapist and the psychiatist to take this seriously and realize how bad it really is. I am not certain the anxiety therapist is helping but I like the psychiatist. The social skills therapist is a very understanding type and I think is more what my daughter needs right now except she is trying to stick to social skills issues because we have the anxiety therapist and she doesn't want to confuse the issues. Anyway I am going to organize my thoughts and start making phone calls shortly.