first off yes i really said this... out loud to myself of course with no one around, second this is about my ex, the one who abursed me for 3yrs and TWICE tried to kill me and my daughter. i have a 5yr restraining order on him, and he agreed to DV and child abuse charges. that was 3yrs ago.... anyway
so yea i was so happy today, i went out with my grad class today to celebrate, i have my party on the 23, my bday in april along with being able to take my boards and many more great things for apirl including my ex deploying... BUT NO i just found out he's not going to deploy no :(
yes im depressed... i thought i was finally going to have a year of peace.... a year where i dont have to watch my back, carry my gun ( yes i have my ccw) or tazer every where i go. worry about my daughter when im not with her and wake up at night afarid of him. Nope he's staying, and even though i've done all i could to protect us (( my order, moving, getting my ccw, i have a dog, watch my back and haven o contact with anyone who knows him)) he is still here.
Nothing like getting knocked down again...... cant wait to go see my therapist on tuesday, and yes im sure some of you will think im a bad person... oh fucking well.